Inner Dialogues of a Modern Day Sage

Self Observation...

I'm so tired.... DRAINED!!! No scratch that... I feel so tired and DRAINED! I have absolutely... No wait... I feel like I have no energy. I want to sleep now. But I am pushing myself to write because my creativity is flowing right now and I actually feel like writing. So I'm choosing the stronger urge.

And you know what? As I am writing my energy is picking up a bit. ::SMILES::

Back to my previous feelings of FEEEEEEELING DRAINED... I can pinpoint it to a few causes, which I am willing and have been willingly working on...

One... As I always "blame" or attribute to all the wonderful changes taking place ::said somewhat sarcastically but with much truth:: is the cosmic energy of the planetary alignment (you will hear this a lot from me).

Secondly... MY DIET! What I consume and don't consume enough of has me feeling totally funky. I really need to work on my water intake. Mental note, more healthier choices starting.... NOW!!! As I eat better, I feel better.

Most importantly, I know I'm in my rebuilding phase or cocoon stage. Everything which no longer serves me is being destroyed. And I'm rebuilding those things that work towards and for my greatest good (or highest good). {From previous research, according to numerology, my life path number is 52/7. The life path 7 is Destroy and Rebuild. and according to my life path, I learn and will encounter philosophies, and if it doesn't weigh up, it will be destroyed and rebuilt on a more lasting foundation} In all honesty, I'm waking up to my true authentic self and my life's purpose... And quite frankly, life as I knew it, is no longer the same nor will it ever be the same. Which is cool..... The amazing thing is, change can either be embraced or resisted. I feel it's a little resistance on my part, partly because of fear, but also as a self check system to make sure that no rock is left unturned in this transformational period. Which feels exhausting. I feel that I am working on ALL that I can, that has resurfaced, to transform for my highest good and that of a collective conscious. Not for perfection, but for a more authentic perfection of myself... being my BEST VERSION. I believe in this wholeheartedly.

As I am writing, it is giving me the opportunity to heal and grow further. Actually, my inner dialogues, helps me to explore the deeper depths of my being. Also, it's helping me feels as though I am fulfilling purpose because I am discovering me while experiencing and sharing and really working on my creative expression. Did you know that your creative expression is the essence of who you are... I just made that up, or pulled that from the collective pool of consciousness... I'm a G like that. :) ::Gangsta (spiritual gangsta that is)... Goddess... God Body (Actually, that would be a GB)... GREAT... All of that).

Ya' know what? I feel a heck of a lot better too. A really good psychic healer friend of mine gave me guidance and said it would. A million more 'thanks' to her lovely soul.

What can I say? Life is good...

Signing off until next time...

Elocin El-Leinad Ned'RAH (The FEARLESS) (Grrrrrrrrrrrr)